The Art of Coming Back

Sometimes the most profound journey is the one that takes you inward, into silence, into the hidden chambers of your own being.

I’ve been quiet in this space for nearly three years. Not because I had nothing to say, but because I was learning to listen—to the whispers of my own traumatized biology, to the cellular memories that had been running my life from the shadows, to the sacred timing of my own unfolding.

In our culture of constant visibility, stepping away can feel like disappearance. But sometimes, disappearing is exactly what we need to do in order to truly appear—not as who we think we should be, but as who we actually are.

Into the Quiet

These years of silence weren’t empty. They were full—achingly, beautifully full of the kind of work that can only happen in the tender darkness of our own becoming.

I went deep into reconnecting with my own traumatized biology. I learned the art of safe expansion—how to grow gradually, honoring my nervous system’s need for gentle pacing rather than forcing breakthrough after breakthrough. I completed my professional year in Biology of Trauma training, as someone living the work from the inside out.

Layer by layer, I discovered how my foetal trauma, childhood wounds, and relational patterns kept weaving themselves into the fabric of my adult life. The same themes, different costumes. The same unconscious choreography, different stages.

But here’s what I learned in the quiet: recognizing the pattern isn’t enough. Even understanding it isn’t enough. The submerged unconscious iceberg that keeps churning out these repetitive patterns of trauma needed something more direct, more precise.

The Science of Rewiring

This realization led me to NLP training—the science of Neuro Linguistic (re)Programming the mind. Neural pathway rewiring. Timeline therapy. The exquisite tools and techniques that give us conscious choice over our human conditioning.

What a gift of science, to discover we’re not prisoners of our past programming. That we can actually intervene in our own unconscious processes with precision and compassion.

A real breakthrough came when I was working with someone experiencing emotional flooding during Timeline therapy. As I intuitively offered somatic support facilitation while she was reprocessing relational trauma, which revealed underlying spiritual trauma, something clicked into place.

I realized she would not have the same results, had she gone to 3 different therapists. Integrative approach of multiple modalities work simultaneously on the interconnected wisdom of the body and plasticity of the mind, trauma and transcendence, wounding and growing, contraction and expansion. I saw a need for such a role.

The 4-Petals Path

From this lived experience emerged what I now call the 4-Petals Holistic Homecoming A.R.T.S.™ Model. Not a theory I developed, but a living system that developed through me—through necessity, through exploration, through the patient unraveling of my own conditioning.

Four pathways back to wholeness:

- Awareness through heart-centred Soulful creative expression and beauty

- Regulation through gut-centred Body somatic healing and nervous system care

- Transformation through head-centred Mindful conscious choice and mindset work

- Spiritualisation through crown-centred Spiritual contemplative beingness and sacred presence

Why Now?

I’m coming back because the integration feels sturdy enough to share. Someone has to start this Homecoming movement. Because there are others out there—creatives, intuitives, contemplatives, mystics—who know this ache for authentic wholeness.

You who feel spiritually aware yet may feel fragmented. You who’ve done the work but still feel like you’re performing your life rather than living it. You who know there’s something more than just managing symptoms or achieving spiritual correctness.

Sacred Timing

Like the axle and wheel that my fellow Buddhist chaplain spoke of—sometimes the misalignment is subtle but significant. Sometimes we need to stop trying to force the dharma wheel to turn and instead tend to the fundamental alignment. 

It feels like Al-Basit expansion time. I’m not the same person who went quiet three years ago, or am I? But I’m not offering the same services or speaking the same tone. I’ve been composted and reborn, in the soil of my own becoming.

What I’m bringing back is the experience of integrative transformation that honours the full complexity of human healing, one that doesn’t rush past the body’s wisdom, or the mind’s capacity for conscious choice, or the soul’s longing for beauty, or the spirit’s yearning for the sacred.

Homecoming

Like the tree in my last poem, that which remains rooted while cosmic energies swirl, I learned that homecoming isn’t about becoming someone new. It’s about returning to who we’ve always been, beneath all the adaptation and survival strategies.  I say again, healing isn’t performance. It’s remembrance. It’s coming home to yourself.

So the tree remains. It doesn’t go anywhere. Neither did you. Neither did the essential you that’s been waiting, patiently, for your return.

Welcome home.

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If this resonates, I’d love to reconnect. Share what’s stirring in you. Tell me about your own journey toward wholeness. Sometimes the most healing thing we can do is witness each other’s becoming.